It’s been a while, but here I am, finally in a very good place. For the longest time, I just couldn’t get myself to work on anything. I am now doing so much better and inspired to write and work on projects (my discord aka community chat and stream).
Here are some highlights of why life is better:
- I’m in love with our apartment. After spending a year living in our car, and then with family members & then getting kicked out and living with other family members, and then getting kicked out again, and moving back with the original family members, it’s been so nice to have our own space, especially such a lovely one.
- I have a new job and I absolutely love it. I cannot go in too much detail about it, but it’s for a non-profit and I get to work with a small lovely group of ladies.
- My health is finally becoming manageable thanks to the medication and lifestyle changes & although it is still a daily struggle, I am able to handle the pain.
Struggling with honesty & openness
I’ve been struggling with honesty with friends and family. I have a hard time with confrontation and always put others before myself and it has been so important to me that I learn to stand up for myself and tell others when they have hurt me and just be more open in general. So I am trying to do that more and realize that if I do it in a way where my intention is not to hurt the other person, but to stand up for myself and protect myself and share my opinion, than that is enough to be okay with. I’ve come to realize that some people you let go of because you have to because the alternative is to continue to be hurt by them and that is not right. I’m going to keep trying.
What I’m Loving:
On the telly: Chernobyl, Big Little Lies Season 2, Euphoria, & Fleabag Season 2
Podcasts: The Two Princes & This Land
Videogames: Divinity Original Sin, Rise of the Tomb Raider